Weekend went with oral surgery.. bone grafted a small part of the jaw bone.  Today would be the fifth day of antibiotic.  The powerful antibiotics plays what role in the body is yet to be discovered.  

The bone graft of the jaw bone has quite a recovery time.  Therefore, it's something that will require time.  Who would've thought that simply raising blood pressure would bring bleeding to the wound.   For a couple of days the blood pressure was to be kept stable so it wouldn't cause bleeding.  

Dental health is vital to overall body health.  A hard lesson to learn but definitely learnt.  On top of that, never keep an infection in the body long... it's just NOT wise.  No job is important than clearing one's infection from their own body.  Pain killer is not meant to be taking long as well.  Sometimes, feeling the pain is a healthy thing because it allows me to gage where and how the surgery is progressing.   Fortunately it's just a smart... after all this time, just a small thing --  it's a blessing.

Chasing time... continue to chase time will last for another month or so.  

About a year ago, this wise elderly lady had told me that grieving can be difficult on the body.  She had explained to me that she had ended up with a toe infection that lasted for a while.  And it was one of those things that was not something common to have happened to her.  What she meant was that this would apply to those who were close and tended to the deceased.  She went on to explain to me that she had a month of endless tears. The main difference is she lost her husband and I lost my father.  She had all these words and experiences that she had been through. 

Her words were appreciated at the time.  Now.. makes me wonder.  At times things cannot be explained.  

originally i thought that by now my broken ankle would have progressed far far far along than where i am now.. well at least that's what the doctor had initially told me.  of course, i stupidly believed it.  i say stupidly because long long long time ago, i've known that orthopedics are notorious for exaggerating recovery.  yes i knew that.  but very naively i never thought that a doctor would mistreat my ailment.  and in 2018, i surely witnessed it.  what makes it worse is i stupidly went along and let the doctor mistreat me.  who and why would the doctor only keep a cast on a broken bone for just ONE WEEK is beyond me.  now, for my own stupidity i am paying for the consequences. 

for those who don't know, i think it's understandable.  however, for those who are close to me i would like to think they are always going to think for me and be considerate for me.  so when someone told me that i am just being a baby and holding myself back from recovery of my broken ankle, and this person happens to be a family member, sure i'll think they may be right.  but little did i know that they couldn't be more wrong (like the doctors), because their focus isn't on me but what the doctors have said.  and what is worse is that finally i recognize that their focus is not even on me, but what others are saying. 

now, for the second time within one month of this specific experience, I woke up this morning to find myself in excruciating pain when i put my foot on the floor.. to a point that i cannot bear weight on it due to tendonitis (or i think that's what it is from what my doctor told me last).  on the other side of the tendonitis, the bone break site (original starting point of this injury) is quite tender, but the pain isn't as significant.  making all of this bad is that neither pain killers nor anti-inflammatory nor any herbal remedies can help relieve the pain or inflammation of the tendonitis.  so while i was happy to have ridden the crutches and walk on my own again, now even it's for a day or two i do need these crutches again.  now that this is the second time within one month.. today, i have decided to baby my injury and do what i need to do to help it recover.  no more of these set backs.  nurse it, i will. 

Happy 2019!! 

The weather has cleared up from a day of rain on New Year's Eve, washing the old and all the bad stuff of 2018 away.  And today the sun is shining and very windy.  This to me is blowing in all the goodness for everyone this upcoming 2019.  Plus the weather is warm for this time of year. 

Wishing everyone a wonderful, happy, and healthy 2019!