a new year but old matters

originally i thought that by now my broken ankle would have progressed far far far along than where i am now.. well at least that's what the doctor had initially told me.  of course, i stupidly believed it.  i say stupidly because long long long time ago, i've known that orthopedics are notorious for exaggerating recovery.  yes i knew that.  but very naively i never thought that a doctor would mistreat my ailment.  and in 2018, i surely witnessed it.  what makes it worse is i stupidly went along and let the doctor mistreat me.  who and why would the doctor only keep a cast on a broken bone for just ONE WEEK is beyond me.  now, for my own stupidity i am paying for the consequences. 

for those who don't know, i think it's understandable.  however, for those who are close to me i would like to think they are always going to think for me and be considerate for me.  so when someone told me that i am just being a baby and holding myself back from recovery of my broken ankle, and this person happens to be a family member, sure i'll think they may be right.  but little did i know that they couldn't be more wrong (like the doctors), because their focus isn't on me but what the doctors have said.  and what is worse is that finally i recognize that their focus is not even on me, but what others are saying. 

now, for the second time within one month of this specific experience, I woke up this morning to find myself in excruciating pain when i put my foot on the floor.. to a point that i cannot bear weight on it due to tendonitis (or i think that's what it is from what my doctor told me last).  on the other side of the tendonitis, the bone break site (original starting point of this injury) is quite tender, but the pain isn't as significant.  making all of this bad is that neither pain killers nor anti-inflammatory nor any herbal remedies can help relieve the pain or inflammation of the tendonitis.  so while i was happy to have ridden the crutches and walk on my own again, now even it's for a day or two i do need these crutches again.  now that this is the second time within one month.. today, i have decided to baby my injury and do what i need to do to help it recover.  no more of these set backs.  nurse it, i will.