Loneliness does not come from having no people around you; instead, it's from the inability to communicate the things that are important to you. 
   Loneliness is rarely about empty rooms, but rather about carrying words you cannot say and truths you do not feel safe to disclose. 
   Healing is learning to speak about what matters most, so you are no longer alone with them.  
   This is the road of allowing yourself to be seen and known for who you are. 

   When should I stop working for it? 
  It's most certainly possible that the destination is just one step ahead.  It is also possible that after arriving at my destination, it may end up being the wrong path.  Gonna be optimistic and hope it's correct. 
   "What if" letting go later may be beneficial and what if holding on is worth the pain?  The question here is which one is better: pain of the present or regret in the future? 
   "Why is any choice or decision made never suffice?" Am I being greedy, selfish, ungrateful... life is about the journey and how is the purpose actually determined?  
   Finding a purpose, achieving it, and leaving a footprint (hopefully). These desires may be overwhelming, but they are good.  Perhaps life is about achieving the overwhelming desires that mean a lot to us.  Most importantly being true to our heart to pick those to work on.  Something that sets the soul free from negativity, false expectations, and a flawed mindset.  
   Serendipituously, life is about achieving the balance between letting loose to go with the flow vs. holding on and enduring the ride to attain the pinnacle. It is best to protect my inner peace and happiness from any temporary goals, people, or circumstances.  Staying the course and staying true to myself.  However... if I am wrong, well, at least then I can have a glass of wine and sit by the fire to talk about it.

This was definitely a colorful year, 2025.  However, in reality these vibrant colors is what I had hoped it to be.  Fortunately, the year is coming to a close and 2026 will be full of these vibrant colors with a clear blue sky.  

Before 2025 finishes, even if the colors are darker in reality but there are still plenty to be grateful for. 
  * I am alive and well (overall): with more than words that I may express my gratitude to be walking and breathing on my own, and my five senses are still intact.  

 * I am growing from my past mistakes and pain: with more than words that I may express my gratitude to have had people in my life this year to walk along side me and give me guidance.  

  * I am working (again) in a new industry with new knowledge and challenges: with more than words that I may express my gratitude to be given this opportunity with a really good boss! 

 * I am (re)learning patience and communication: with more than words that I may express my gratitude to be able to spend time with my family and friends (all new and old ones). 

  * I am ecstatic to be picking up some of my hobbies, in which are my passion again: with more than words that I may express my gratitude my background and parents who spent time and money on me to have developed these passion of mine. 

  * I am working out as I get back into the groove of things (again): with more than words that I may express my appreciation in which after some work and consistent training I am able to slow jog. 

And of course, I shall not forget... 
  ** I am blessed to have a roof, food, air, water, and love surrounding me: with more than words that I may express my gratitude to be blessed with all these (my) basic necessity to survive and come this far. 

These are just to name a few... the blessings everyday comes to me and I see how I am very fortunate and loved by my family and friends.  God only knows that I am so fortunate and blessed because He loves me.  All these blessings, none of which are in my hands to control, but He is the only one who makes everything come together.  I would not be here without His blessings and guidance.  I am so thankful to God.  

For all those who have a choice and chose to stick with me -- thank you!