Time Just Slips Away

Hello... Hello... Hello...!!   I have missed this site, writing and posting here.  It's good to be back. 

I have been meaning to sit down and write for a very long time.  Without realizing it, three years have slipped by. It was not my intention to have lapsed for so long and not have resumed on this site.  Therefore, this is a short catch-up on the past three years.  

Five years ago, I came back from Taiwan.  And the first two years were rough.. I mean, the bounce back from Covid-19 was definitely not one for the faint of heart.  Having caught Covid-19 right at the tail end of when it was almost deadly.  Short of going to the hospital, I had it rough. 
The fever, the brain fog, the inability to hold any food down, the bronchitis... it seems the virus had changed my lifestyle for the span of three plus months.  Once I recovered, I landed in a new and my first pharmaceutical position.  Being a Sr. HCP Contracting Specialist carried me for two and a half years.  In light of keeping things brief, it was my first "project management-like" role, and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I had an awesome boss and a wonderful mentor.  Plus, it utilized about 90% of my skills I have, while also acquiring and opening more skill sets I never thought of.  Definitely a rare golden opportunity!  With that said, my skills sharpened, and new skills were obtained!  

During the time I was a Sr. HCP Contracting Specialist, the information and knowledge I had gathered from my equity research years remained accurate and unchanged.  Fortunately, in this position, I was behind the scenes and did not have much direct contact with the patients and the doctors past the contracts. In the midst of this role that I enjoyed thoroughly, a bond I thought would be unbreakable now seems extremely brittle.  A friend whom I thought we would be in each other's lives for as long as we lived made a decision to cut all ties. Who would have thought?!   
A friend of over two decades, who I thought would be the bigger and better person between us... this 'friend' was unable to deal with his own demons now cut off all ties between us.  This guy, who had verbally claimed all his victories, was actually just an empty shell. 

Now...
                                                                     
Fast forward to late August 2025, and I met someone who has been a good friend.  It was through his words and actions that I was reminded of the importance of living in the moment (and not in the past).  I hadn't realized I've been consumed by this pain and allowed myself to wallow in my own self-pity for a year and a half... so much that I forgot to live in the present. 
This new friend is gentle, kind, and showed me that there is so much beauty that remains, even if we have lost the one(s) we loved.  More importantly, it was really a waste of time to try to figure out why people do what they do.  It would be tragic and regretful if I allowed that to take up any more energy and time than I already have.  
Just like that, I decided to cut off all the past and leave it in the past, and live my life as I desire. 

The brand new me means drawing my boundaries so I live for me and do what I need to do.  Alas, now I am living for me!  

If anything I have learned in these past two months, it is that I need to live in the present and not let it slip by, and don't let anything or anyone stop me from living in the moment!