It's been months, going on years... waiting for you to change.
  Aiyaya.. there ain't much that's dumber than pinning your hopes on a change in someone.
  And I, yeah, I still need you, but what good is that now? 
  Needing is one thing, and getting's another.  

  So I've been sitting around, wasting my time, wondering what you been doing.
  Aw, it ain't real forgiving, sitting here picturing someone else living.
  And I, yeah, I still miss you, but what good will that do ever?
  Needing is one thing, and getting's another.  

​  Don't give up on me, luv
  When I stumble along... 
  .. when I act a little crazy  
  Remember, my love for you won't fade;
  I wanted you for so long  
  Tell me, is it so wrong...    
  ... even if we fell in love  
  
  Hoping that we fall in love  
  When you hold on to me
  When you let me in
  You know that I got you under my skin. 
  We tried hard not to bruise it  
  If forever is going to last.. 
  ... let it in the quiet glow of memories of us 

  Some days didn't come easily  
  Some days didn't come hard  
  Some days don't come at all  
  And those were the days that never end  
  No matter when or where or what 
  When I heard your ringtone and voice 
  The whole world seemed to exhale 

  Some nights, you were breathing fire
  Some nights, you were carved ice 
  Some nights you were like nothing I've ever
  Seen before or will again 
  When your world fell dark  
  I walked beside you thru the silence 
  Until dawn rose in your eyes again.   

  I've been praying for months; I will keep praying, hoping I might forget.
  Aw, but it doesn't get much dumber than trying to forget a girl when you love her.
  And I, yeah, I accept that you will always be in my heart.  
  Needing is one thing, and getting's just out of reach completely. 

  
  2025 has been a rough year; I am more than ecstatic that it is finally over.  I enter 2026 with a full heap of hopes and meaningful goals.  And this time, I am not driven by motivation -- this time, I am guided by discipline.  

  Over these past few years, I have come to learn that motivation is just steam.  

 Quite simply put, motivation is a great starting point, as it propels one forward.  This steam evaporates quickly when things get rough.  Motivation is merely a cheap fuel that won't carry you to reach your pinnacle, as it depends too much on external forces.  They fade when frustration sets in.   Depending on the goal, some of these tasks may even bring moments of helplessness.  During these moments of frustration and helplessness, when they are pinned up on the board, motivation will evaporate into thin air.  Meanwhile, discipline is steady and quiet.  Accompanying and helping one to walk through this journey unmasked and complete the list of tasks. 
  
  The purpose behind these goals should be worthy that it ignites the fire within the pursuer to chase it until it is obtained.  Goals should not be set to impress others but for the purpose of bringing self-assessment, development, and satisfaction.  In the end, only through consistent efforts, perseverance, and unwavering discipline can we transform those goals into achievements.